Truth of the Matter

I talked to Gali yesterday on the phone and she really wanted to make it clear that she has already quit on us and that I need to start thinking about how I will please my "next girl". I felt that I had to express my feelings to her to show her the love I feel for her but she made it clear that I was being selfish to want to express that to her. Wanted to her to get her to cry or to be sad. No, I did not do that for that reason. If she is crying then she still does love me and is doing this against what her heart is really saying. She is listening to her Head.

Well my Production Manager really was cool. Right there on the set behind the cameras shooting Kermit and Miss Piggy, she squatted down if front of me and really drove it home that what Gali is asking for is not out of the question. Tara (PM) said to work my way away. To not call for 5 days, 7 days, 14 days and so on. If Gali sees what life is like really without me and realizes that she wants to come back...then it is her choice. She has to be in control and I have to give it to her because that is the only way she will ever come back...but there still is the possibility that she won't come back and I have to be okay with that.

I did do the cue cards yesterday for Ashley Tisdale, Kermit and Miss Piggy. I got to get a photo with Kermit.. That is Steve the operator on the right. He has worked for Jim Henson Studios for over 20 years and worked with Jim Henson himself for over 14 years...it was an honor to stand next to him.

Day 14 since she left

My wife left me 3 days after my first blog post. I really wanted to do this blog to get into shape to please my wife both physically and emotionally. I know I have issues of being lazy, messy, annoying, gross, rude, selfish and unaffectionate. Didn't I just cover about 95% of all men and the others are all uptight dweebs. Well anyway I did not cry today for the first time since she left. Well today is actually Saturday the 28th at 2:14 in the morning so there still is a chance of breaking down today. what I meant is that Friday the 27th was the first day since she left that I did not cry. I worked all day for Disney, I met Billy Bob Thornton and just told him that I want to go on tour with him to get the hell out of dodge. He took my card and told me he would pass my info off to his manager Lisa....we shall see.

Well I ran 10 miles in 4 hours straight...the night she left me. she took the car and did not tell me where she went...so I ran to where I know she would go...and there was my car parked right outside. So that jump started my exercise plan I guess. I then did not eat for 3 days. Then I got some work and stayed busy for the last few days. I have been getting calls for work all week....I guess when it rains it pours....for the past 3 weeks before my first post, I was begging for work. Now I only have one day off between these 2 work weeks. I pray that the jobs keep coming...that is a reason that she left me...I was not contributing to the house income enough.
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(UPDATE: Keep reading if you like...but the real reason she left is because she was emotionally cheating on me with a friend of mine and everything I posted below here was how I was blaming myself. She ended up staying with him the moment she left me and then started dating, seeing, screwing...whatever, him only a month after she left. She does not deserve a man like me. She and the guy she dumped me for have already got pregnant and faked a wedding Vegas so she could tell her family she is having a child. Because you know... she would not want to make people think the baby was an accident...right? She will never find happiness. He biological mother is just like her. Once she gets tired of this guy... she will bounce to next guy that will take her. Hope she avoids the drug dealers. Unlike her mother.)
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Well now I am moving out to a one bedroom apartment to really prove to her that I am worth fighting for and to not give up on us. So I am going to really get into shape and become a man she will drool over. I then will take my apartment and use it only as an office or maybe she will move in with me and we will down size our bills. I will prevail...no matter what i will become what she desires...but only she can decide if she will take me back. Well keep me going. I have not really told anyone but a few people...about my wife leaving...so I am sending this out to those who don't know us in hopes of receiving your positive energy to boost my progress and hope toward winning her back. Cheer me on!

Day 1- First Blogger POST!

Today is Tuesday July 11th. I make too may excuses as to why I cannot work out. I have the option to go down to the local YMCA but I don't have a Cali DL so I have not even gone to see what I need to join. I am living in a one bedroom apartment with my wife and my brother-in-law who is just visiting us right now.

I am submitting this photo from the first week I moved here in Sept 2006.

I have been here for about ten months now an I have let the snack food on the sets I have worked on to get to my mouth and poison my body.







This is what I looked like in April 2007.
238 lbs. 38 inch waist.



I am now at 243 lbs. Still the same waist line but that is because it is a gut and spilling over my belt line. So I will measure from my belly button around the back....so the verdict is....46 inches AHHHHH.










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